God is Faithful!

I know it has been a LONG time since I posted, but I was just thinking about God's Faithfulness!

Almost 4 years ago (did I really just put that?) my son made an interesting entrance into the world, just weighing at 2lbs 4oz. and about 13" long. He was born in a hospital where they didn't (and as far as I know) still don't! It was 10:57 when he came into the world and was helicopter flown to Tampa General Hospital to their Nicu!


Let's see, when we found out we were expecting him (and how all that went down is a very long story) we didn't know we were gonna have him til a month before he was born (actually found out on our first year of our wedding anniversary). Anyways, when we found out that we were expecting him. There was A LOT of fear and excitement at the sametime! I kept hearing God tell me that He's Got it! I look back at that now and I know I didn't realize what that really meant (Almost 4 years later I sure do now)! So, as parents to be we had to put FULL trust in God, that it was all up in his hands!

Thru out Zackary's time spent in the Nicu (about 3 1/2 months, we kept feeling that God still had it! They kept telling us in the Nicu to expect a roller coaster ride! I will say that we had our share of a roller coaster ride with Zackary but definitely not like what a lot of other parents in that Nicu experienced with their babies being there! God is Faithful! 

I know God put the nurses in the path to take good care of Zackary (even though we had one problem with one nurse and that she shouldn't have been taken care of him but that is over with now and he is fine, lol) from Nurses that we were able to minister to just by playing our music "praise and worship" that was meant for Zackary and how much they told us it brought them peace when they did their assessment on Zackary and how they liked the music (God thing, right there to nurses actually ministering to us (One night nurse, doubt she realized she did or not but she sure did) to a nurse speaking over Zackary with assurance and faith, example: Zackary was learning to finally take a bottle, he had to learn to suck, swallow, breathe. Which if he had been a newborn and born on time this would be no issue but since he was born so early he had to learn this, anyways I don't remember being frustrated with his first bottle feeding or just really excited because it was one of the first steps in getting out of the Nicu and take my baby home. But she walks in the room (I can still see it to this day) as I'm feeding him (basically checking on him) and don't me not to worry, once he gets this (bottle feeding) watch him take off, he won't be sick a day in his life after this! If that isn't speaking in Faith or into someone's life I don't know what is! God is Faithful!

(Zackary, first picture is him in the Nicu, days old and the second one is him now, almost 4, will be Nov 1.)

God is faithful! Zackary has only been sick twice in his almost 4 years of his life, since leaving the nicu on Feb 15th, 2011.

Zackary is now almost potty trained (still have some issues to work on but he will get it, I know he will) and it is not because of him being a preemie, he is stubborn LOL! He may be only 3 (almost 4) now but my goodness this kid is SMART! He says things that I know we hadn't taught him and says BIG BIG words! Oh yeah, Preemie's speech can be delayed because of development, not Zackary's! God is Faithful!

Zackary is and always has been a fighter, even the last moments I felt him in the womb, just before being born! And he has a very independent spirit about him, but wouldn't have it any other way! I have seen God work in his life since he was conceived basically! Zackary has a loving side, he loves to cuddle, and give hugs (when he isn't cranky) and kisses on the cheeks (lol). He loves Cars, Planes and Mickey Mouse! He almost takes any toy and makes them fly! We are starting to have him recognize his letters and hopefully spell his name soon!

I can't wait to see what God has in store for his life! I know it is BIG because God doesn't do things in small ways! God is Faithful and as he told us "He's Got it"!

Why am I telling you all this? Because as a mommy of an almost 4 year old, I can't imagine my life without him and How easy it could have been for him not to be here, but again God is Faithful! If nothing else to encourage you a bit and know that God's got you and your situation and he is Faithful! Just fully Trust him!

Oh my! I'm about to have a 4 year old in my home! Bring it on! Cause I know God has it all and working for the GOOD!

Welcome 2012~ Thrilled You are Here!

New Year's Eve, I spent it with my Husband and my son! As we welcomed the New Year together, I couldn't help but think of what 2011 was for us! So much happened during that year just hard to wrap it all in words! But Praise God we can look forward and move on in 2012.

We are expecting GREAT things to happen in 2012! We are expecting GREAT blessings from God for all 3 of our lives, not that we were blessed in 2011 but expect even more and Greater!

Shortly after 2012 came in, I was just thinking (for some odd reason) why we get so hyped up about bringing in a New Year. Well, it quickly was known to me (believe the Holy Spirit had a hand in this one) that we are leaving the past behind and moving forward. And looking forward to a bigger and brighter future. Its our NEW SEASON!

ALL things have past away and ALL things have become new. What a concept to think, we leave the past behind and we step into Bigger things, Many things will happen for a lot of people in this coming year! From Marriage to Birth to even losing someone so close to us, but one thing is for sure, we know we have a Bigger Future ahead and we can start stepping into our New Season!

2012 has been called "Breakthrough" year! I receive that for my family and I. We are stepping into our New Season! And it excites me to know that I am no longer staying the same but am changing for the good! I can already see it working in this New Season, and Can't wait to see how the rest of the year goes and I know that we are going to be blessed beyond measure!

Start stepping into your New Season, let all things that were old pass away and like all things become new to you! And receive your breakthrough this year!

Praying for Great things to come your way!

God Bless you in this new season and year!

Merry Christmas!

Well it is that time of year again! Christmas! And this year is very very special to Wayne and I! It is Zackary's first Christmas, well not really his First, but his first here at home!

Last year at this time, he was still at Tampa General Nicu! I don't think I'll ever forget Christmas Eve (maybe years later I will). On Christmas Eve, Wayne and I had planned on staying in Zackary's room in the Nicu just so we could be with him on Christmas Morning (we had to be back to Polk County to get together with my family for Christmas later on that day). As we had everything packed with us in the room and started getting settled in to spend the night with him in his room, I started not being able to relax, there was too much beeping going on and his stats were unstable at the time and I just knew it was gonna be A LONG LONG night if we stayed there!

I finally convinced Wayne that we should go to the Hotel (they had discounts for people who had someone in the hospital, and they were like 2 miles from the hospital), well as we packed up our stuff again and started heading out, Zackary ended up having Brady's (where the heart rate drops below 100). And of course that totally alarmed us! Wayne did not have peace at that time to leave him and I felt the same. The nurse did her assement to figure out why he was having these brady's and could not figure out what was wrong. She ended up calling the resident and they were gonna be on their way as soon as they were done with another baby at the time.

Well earlier that day, I was holding Zackary and his feeding tube had come out, I told his nurse at that time that it had come out and she put it back in. I kinda thought at the time that she put that in pretty quickly but only shrugged off as to "I"m sure she has done this several times". And let it go at that! Little did I know that that information and noticing that would pay off later.

Wayne and I went into the parent's lounge while the nurse did all she could for Zackary to find out why he was having a brady and we prayed that God would give us peace and guide the nurses hand as to what was going on with him. Suddenly as we got done praying, the event of the feeding tube being put in too fast was brought back to remembrance. I asked the nurse to step out of Zackary's room for a second and told her what had happened that day! And she went back in and pulled his feeding tube out and sure enough there was a curve in the tube that was not suppose to be there.

When she pulled it out Zackary's heart rate went back to where it was suppose to be right away. And he gave us a smile of relief like "HELLO, I've been trying to tell you that for awhile now!" After the nurse got the feeding tube back in there the RIGHT way. We felt at peace and knowing that God had it all along and we were able to leave the hospital with such relief and peace to go have a peaceful Christmas Eve. Oh yeah, we never did see the resident who was on call that night, didn't need to after we found out it was the feeding tube.

Boy what a Christmas we had last year! But you know what we have a normal healthy 13 month old now! Who is FULL of energy (wish I had his energy at times).

It was very hard Christmas last year, so hard we barely even celebrated it (which Christmas is one of my favorite times of the year). Yes we know what Christmas is all about and how God gave us his son so that we might have life and his promises to be unveiled! But our focus was on our son to get him better and whole and come home to us. God's promises have come true and continue to be true to us!

When life seems to get you down and you just don't think you can do it anymore (btw I know this feeling all to well) look up to God who is your provider and protector, you can't go wrong with him! That is who we looked up to on that Christmas Eve when we couldn't figure out what was going on with Zackary and we needed guidance and peace, and God came thru in a awesome way that night!!


We hope and pray that everyone has a very blessed and awesome Christmas! Not just with your family and friends but for the reason we celebrate Christmas all together! If it had not been for God sending his son to us, I don't know where I would be and I really don't want to know. I am glad to have a mighty God who knows what I need in the time of need!

Merry Christmas! And have a blessed and prosperous New Year~2012!

Hasbargen Family

What a Year!

                          As most of you know my son was born premature.

Well he is now a healthy 17lb 10 and 1/2 month old. Soon we will be celebrating his first birthday (hard to believe).

Man, what a year! Coming upon Wayne and I's second wedding anniversary, I can't help but look back this year and feel very very blessed. Around our first year anniversary is when we discovered we were expecting our son. However, in that discovery we didn't realize all that we were gonna be going thru!

With him being in the Nicu for 3 and half months. I can definitely say we never stopped and asked God "why?" We didn't have to. We knew God had the whole situation. And boy did he ever (as I have had posted before).

When Zackary was in the Nicu, his PDA was not closing on its own. So they treated him 3 different times to get it closed (the third time finally worked). But his PFO was opened and had been opened after we came home with him!

Well, I can praise God for today's report with the cardiologist: His PFO is closed!! YAY!!! And we got released from the cardiologist as well (that felt real good). She also cleared him for his hernia surgery for next week. I'll say it again and again: GOD IS FAITHFUL.

As we come upon his first birthday (and his daddy's birthday, Zackary was born on his daddy's birthday. Only God could orchestrate that) Wayne and I can't help but reflect on the goodness of God and realize God has not forgotten us or you! He is faithful and is always there no matter the situation.

I can't help but pray over the nicu everytime I think about it, just cause there are other people going thru what we went thru and I know prayer works. The day we left TGH (Tampa General Hospital) I prayed over the room Zackary was in and asked God to be there for the next baby as he was for us!

Just remember God is a faithful God and He loves you!!! 

Expecting Great things...

     We are expecting great things in our house, and we are starting to see the results from it! 


     Since Zackary was born prematurely, we weren't sure what the outcome for development would be for him! Yes we stood on Faith (and still do to this day) that God would see us thru for this little one! And we knew he would! Lately, I have been praying over his development (maybe after he had been home for a few months did I start doing this). I would always pray that the doctors would be amazed and couldn't explain how far he has come a long. Don't get me wrong Zackary did not have any issues with brain development or any of that kind. Just wanted him to be on track with the other babies or beyond where he should be!

      Expecting these things to come to pass! I kept hearing to start expecting it to come together and work for good! Well, we ended up selling his swing (he no longer used it) and we bought him an exersaucer, we kinda thought he might still be to little for it. But expecting that he would do great in this exersaucer and God did not fail! We have the exersaucer for 3 weeks now and Zackary has made some leaps and bounds (by the way, I don't think the exersaucer did all this but God did, I do think it was our answer to help Zackary out). Our baby boy is learning to reach up and he is about ready to blow raspberries and he knows how to turn in his exersaucer. He actually scooted some on his belly. He is learning to roll over more!

     Now I don't know what the regular is for a baby to be at but I am believing and expecting that my son is developing the way he should be and beyond! And that God has it under control!


     Not only are we expecting great and mighty things for Zackary but in our lives in general! I am excited and yet I don't know what I'm excited about except God is still on the throne and holds it all! God is good and I can't deny that he is at work!!!

Frustrated

Why is it that when you try your best in things or with people that you pretty much get slapped in the face?

                       Why can't people get along with people, isn't this how God wanted it?

     I understand that people get hurt, but aren't we suppose to let it all go and move on with life and try to act like nothing ever happened? And when you visit that person or people (which ever the case maybe) that all you want is to be welcomed and not feel like you are some kind of stranger in their home or in their presence of some sort! 

      No matter how hard you try to get a long with that person it never seems like its enough, I'm pretty sure God wants us to forgive and forget. He does that with us when we call upon his name! Yes, I have these questions and honestly I can't not persuade people to let things go, that is between them and God. No matter how hard I try or you try people are gonna do what people what they want to do! It does make living life a little bit harder!
      I just don't understand why people get so mad about the little things so much and so quickly. I have come a long way in my life on trying to actually enjoy the little things in life and the people who are in my life no matter how much we don't like each other or just simply don't get a long!
      Do you ever wonder if actually talking to the person actually would help, no matter how many times you have talked to them? And then at the same time you don't want to be an immature person!

      This title fits this blog very well... And I guess you can say its kinda venting! I guess I will never understand, which could be okay! 

Wants to sleep!

     For the past 4 nights (at least) I have not been able to sleep until at least 4 in the morning, all I can say to that is UGH! And just as I am getting to finally zonk out, Zackary wakes up ready for his first bottle of the night!!!

     Anyways, I have a lot on my mind the past few nights, from what God is doing in my life to how can I be a better mommy and wife, from is there a way I could have done our wedding better (that started tonight) to wonder what we plan on doing this weekend (except try to have a little bit of date).

     I am so ready for this not sleeping when I want to lay my head down and go to dream land. Then I pray that when I do it is sweet sleep and that I will have sweet dreams. Literally by the time I'm ready to be asleep, either my husband is getting up and getting ready for work or when he calls me to tell me he made it to work! 


     I am praying and hoping that this is not a trend that will last forever. I happen to like my sleep (maybe a little to much). I know that I'm in God's hands and that I will be able to sleep and get most of the sleep I need to function during the day. Honestly, I can't wait for this weekend so my husband can take over the night shifts with Zackary, funny thing is is when he is taking over Zackary tends to sleep better. I guess Zackary likes to have both of us around! Makes him feel comforted (Awww, I love my baby!). 


      I also have this nervousness going on too, I actually know what that is, that is, a week from today I have a cardiologist appointment. I know everything will be fine because God's got it! But still a little nerve racking. And I know that is what is causing the nervousness because everytime I think of it I get nervous, HA!

     Okay well I guess enough venting or whatever you want to call it. Plz pray that I will be able to get my sleep back on track and be able to sleep when I lay my head down on the pillow at night! And that my mind or anything for that matter does not keep me distracted, no matter what the case maybe! Thank you for the prayers in advance and I know they work!